The V Word

  Staring at the ceiling I count  To feel the time pass by Living an engrossed life Made me forget the presence of it The feel of looking at the night sky  And thinking of stars as my ancestors  Come to think of it, when did I grow so much? That I forgot these moments surround me everyday Making me feel more alive  But being too occupied in the shell of life attainment I overlooked what living a life truly is!

staying up in night i wonder what it felt to be a child again trying to gather memories  of what i did when i was a child thinking whether that mischievousness was enough  could have i laughed a little more to cry a little less today if i could have changed the past would there had been a leaf not turned? just to end up coming today  thinking of changing things all over again

 sitting by the sunset i watch the sun go down clouds crowning the sky just for the night the way my consciousness goes down thoughts crowning my mind  just for the night dawn giving rise to a new day clouds making entry for the sun just for the day making me awake to the reality focusing on the path that appears just for the day!

she sits in the darkness in a way it fits her so well a blooming flower now dried up but the soil still tries to make her bloom she was a cotton of black soil sown in sandy soil to be a cactus!

 time flies by  but the feelings i have why don't they? every minute i overthink a thought hoping it might change what i feel but then my feelings  they heighten up  i cant accept what i feel because for the one i feel i don't wanna let him know how bad it hurts to see him leave.

sitting in the balcony in the cold winter night inhaling the breeze with a cup of coffee in my hand it's hard to not remember you but what's more hard is   accepting that i won't be able to talk to you the moon shining at its brightest showing me light in the dark but not helping me find my way back to you  the coffee strikes me in the throat but the taste of your lips is still on my tongue

Reading this word would have made your adrenaline rush through your body. Isn't it? Why is is that we can not talk about the word SEX openly? It does not only mean having a dick in a vagina or other ways around but also it states the gender of an organism. I remember back when in some application it used to be written sex instead of gender, there was something which I went through and I dont know why. You see there isn't something to be ashamed of saying, it is the only reason why we are born and are living a life, a happy life. Imagine your parents being shy to do it like the way you smirk when you hear the word sex, you would not have been born then. We are not ashamed when we abuse others related to their mom sisters or on their character, instead we laugh at those miserable words but when someone says they have had sex why do we act like as if we control their actions? He/she wanted and they did it. Why do you talk to someone because you wish to, so caan not a normal perso

i sit here alone no one to talk to listening to the rain thinking it has someone too to love and to fall on and here i lay upon on my own turning again and again on my bed hoping to sleep like a winter bear my tears falling like the rain drops sometimes like the drizzle  while some days like the hail though without any noise  i lighten my heavy clouds  present within me.

YOUTH sitting and talking about others showing off that I didn't bother but who knew the fault was in me and I chose to hide it under my pillow cover being strong and stable in all the weathers all I needed was a big hug from my brother but I was busy judging others and ended up being a Traitor!