The V Word

she’s so awkward but i know she tries to hide it, she wanted me close but I never noticed a quite bit. her late night stories and giggles used to make my day, her clumsiness took my breath away. i wonder if she knew but played dumb,  because every time I looked at her way my heart melted some. hoping every time that she had something to tell me, she never did but her eyes did, you see. she was bad at making eye contact, maybe she knew it all too well. this might have never been what we were supposed to, we were just an open ended story, only we were not the writers of it.

The days I spent in that big sunny  house, Hearing the tiptoe down the roof by that lil brown mouse Where I calmed my heart With the breeze, moonlight and you  The hushing sounds of the gushing winds Walking by the window sills  With the tender breaths on my shoulder A reassurance of your presence Holding me while you snuggle into me  I slept on the roof that day all night Do you remember? You also spent the night But now I snuggle into the pillow Curling myself as much as I can Tears sliding off my shoulders  Where the tender breaths held me  The winds of thunder scare me It’s no longer you who holds me It’s me who holds myself  A bit more tighter, closer and longer I wish that you’d remember me But do you?  

The boy passing by I saw you yesterday  Just passing by You were alone but better than ever I peeked into those dark eyes Hoping they would meet mine And remember everything we’ve had I felt a tear in the corner of mine and realized we’re all past that And then in the spilt second you were gone just like the old times I clung onto the memories you’ve left  But I so wish I could just let go Move on and be on my own But you brought me back to square one I stood there longing for u but I knew I would have to move on To break away from you and the past To be me again for what comes next!

I close my eyes, trying to sleep  As soon as I was about to doze A thought wandering about hits me I wide opened my eyes And ponder about it All what could or couldn't happen My eyes drowsy A few seconds away from being close to rest But it’s as if my unfulfilled thoughts are checking up on me again As soon as I was about to doze A thought wandering about hits me…

  Staring at the ceiling I count  To feel the time pass by Living an engrossed life Made me forget the presence of it The feel of looking at the night sky  And thinking of stars as my ancestors  Come to think of it, when did I grow so much? That I forgot these moments surround me everyday Making me feel more alive  But being too occupied in the shell of life attainment I overlooked what living a life truly is!

 Happy to be with you Could it be any better than this To have you by my side  Laughing and teasing each other With a little glitter of love and fight Trying to be careless in a world full of responsibilities  Where everyone’s trying to be snow in between the dust Being happy in the world of us  With sparkling fear of the reality  But coping up with everything with the clouds speed To be the true with each other With flavor of bitterness of the world Living in the moment  Just so remember the day in the future And swaying away the worries  Like the wind does on a swing

staying up in night i wonder what it felt to be a child again trying to gather memories  of what i did when i was a child thinking whether that mischievousness was enough  could have i laughed a little more to cry a little less today if i could have changed the past would there had been a leaf not turned? just to end up coming today  thinking of changing things all over again

 sitting by the sunset i watch the sun go down clouds crowning the sky just for the night the way my consciousness goes down thoughts crowning my mind  just for the night dawn giving rise to a new day clouds making entry for the sun just for the day making me awake to the reality focusing on the path that appears just for the day!

she sits in the darkness in a way it fits her so well a blooming flower now dried up but the soil still tries to make her bloom she was a cotton of black soil sown in sandy soil to be a cactus!

 i try to look for  you even when there is no crowd i try to find you even when you're in front of me  i try to hold your hand  even when we are hand in hand i try to feel you even when i know you're not gonna let go  am i dreaming or is this the reality?

 time flies by  but the feelings i have why don't they? every minute i overthink a thought hoping it might change what i feel but then my feelings  they heighten up  i cant accept what i feel because for the one i feel i don't wanna let him know how bad it hurts to see him leave.

We meet people in our life, get close to them and sometimes fall in love with them. But when we look back in our life, say 2 year, we find the people who had been in our lives back then are somewhat different. It is a stupid question if one asks if they had lost someone in their life. When in this present world, some people loose themselves over their addictions. And now, losing people isn't a big deal, the big deal is having people in our life who can stay by our side till our death. And in finding those who will stay, we let go of the people close to us.  What would one do without anyone to share their joy with?  And without someone who would drink with you in your sorrows? We meet hundreds of people in our life, physically, and hundreds of other people on social media,  mentally, having so many people across you and you still end up being alone when sad. What is this? This is what we do, we isolate ourselves from others when we need them the most, scared of showing the...

  You too find it difficult in moving on right? I find moving on a good thing for myself. The next time you come in a relation of any kind let i be a friendship or your parents siblings or relationship with your partner, you can easily find out the things which your previous relationship made it end and make you think that this one would end up like that too, so you try to go slow and prefer not to make the same the mistakes like the last one. But some of the people find it difficult and nearly destroy themselves for someone who doesn't even think of them once, for them, they are stuck there at that moment only whereas you need to be like  time, whatever happens you need to keep moving on regardless of how you feel for whom you feel. If the other person could live happily after all the shit between the two why the hell do you suffer then? Why don't we think of those days as happy days which will now happen with someone else? Half of the people in love right now would somehow e...

do you cry too? do you make mistakes?  do you love someone and learn to let that person go? do you expect something from someone? do you feel hurt when they don't match up to it? i too feel the same feels like everyone does 'coz we all are the same imperfect but humans

sitting in the balcony in the cold winter night inhaling the breeze with a cup of coffee in my hand it's hard to not remember you but what's more hard is   accepting that i won't be able to talk to you the moon shining at its brightest showing me light in the dark but not helping me find my way back to you  the coffee strikes me in the throat but the taste of your lips is still on my tongue

Reading this word would have made your adrenaline rush through your body. Isn't it? Why is is that we can not talk about the word SEX openly? It does not only mean having a dick in a vagina or other ways around but also it states the gender of an organism. I remember back when in some application it used to be written sex instead of gender, there was something which I went through and I dont know why. You see there isn't something to be ashamed of saying, it is the only reason why we are born and are living a life, a happy life. Imagine your parents being shy to do it like the way you smirk when you hear the word sex, you would not have been born then. We are not ashamed when we abuse others related to their mom sisters or on their character, instead we laugh at those miserable words but when someone says they have had sex why do we act like as if we control their actions? He/she wanted and they did it. Why do you talk to someone because you wish to, so caan not a normal perso...

i sit here alone no one to talk to listening to the rain thinking it has someone too to love and to fall on and here i lay upon on my own turning again and again on my bed hoping to sleep like a winter bear my tears falling like the rain drops sometimes like the drizzle  while some days like the hail though without any noise  i lighten my heavy clouds  present within me.

YOUTH sitting and talking about others showing off that I didn't bother but who knew the fault was in me and I chose to hide it under my pillow cover being strong and stable in all the weathers all I needed was a big hug from my brother but I was busy judging others and ended up being a Traitor!

i wish i could fly above  in the high blue sky with all the birds  who don't lie i wish i could swim in the ocean to get to know what really deep is in there with all big small animals  to learn to live on my own i wish i could trust everyone  in the life i am given to know the people whom i know and to believe that everyone is pure.      

This Corona-virus came into being at the dawn of 2020. No one knew that it would turn into a situation like this. None of the economists believed that the biggest nations will suffer a loss in their economic growth. But this came as a hurricane, eroding every part of the world. So here's a few things which we all have been asked and have gone through in this severe pandemic:- As soons as schools were shut, schools started online classes. Every so relative who called at home gradually asked, " Are your classes going on?" It felt as if they were the ones who wanted to study! But it was meant to be, neither the parents leave their children sitting idle and nor the teachers! Not only these online classes have been a  pain for children but also for the parents and teachers who yell at them like hell to make them do their homework. I don’t think there is a single house where a cake wasn’t baked in this phase. Not only the beginners in the kitchen learnt a lot but also deep do...